I have something to say before I become a yoga teacher…

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I rarely have anything bad to say about anything anymore. I know that allowing negativity into your life only attracts more negativity. This time, however, I just need to vent. First, some background to the story.

I decided close to a year ago that I was no longer happy with what I did for a living. I spent a lot of time in meditation, and praying for guidance because I knew I couldn’t carry on much longer with the status quo that had become my life. I decided to try to find something that I enjoyed to do with the rest my life. I began creating, and woodworking, and writing. I started to notice that things around me were becoming more clear. I began to have faith that I was not put here to work for big pharma, doing a job that I knew was wrong. I began to ask for signs in my meditations that would direct me, and to keep me on this path that I was giving more faith to everyday. Well, they came, they came in droves. It is true that the more you look, the more you find. As 2015 wore on I decided that if I really wanted things to change that I would have to leave my comfort zone and go see the world. How I was going to do this, I had no idea.

I had just gotten done reading “The Secret” by Rhonda Byrne and over and over in the book the author kept saying to create what you want that you should act like you already had it, and to be thankful for it ahead of time. I wanted more than anything to travel. The first thing I did was change my last name on Facebook to Kerouac after one of my favorite authors and world travellers. I decided that everytime I logged in and saw that, that it would remind me of that goal. Next I decided that I wanted to strengthen my yoga practice because yoga and meditation, I believe, unequivocally, were the reasons I was able to heal and overcome addiction and depression, and also grow my awareness allowing all the signs I kept receiving, and why I felt so much more faith in things. I began looking for places that offered yoga teacher training. There were tons of places around my hometown that offered it, and I reached out to many of them for information.

By now 2015 was winding down. I was as unhappy as ever in my job, and knew it was almost time to move on. I took vacation from work, and travelled to North Carolina to visit my cousin. While I was there I took some time to familiarize myself with the area because I felt like this may be a good place to start the rest of my life. I visited some yoga studios and looked at classifieds. I even dropped off a few resumes. When I returned home I decided that by the following winter I was moving to North Carolina hell or high water. Within the next couple of days I had decided that I was going to sign up for yoga teacher training at a school in my hometown. On the day that I finally decided to sign up at a school close to home, (I had the website open ready to make my payment) I saw an ad on Facebook for a place called Vinyasa Arts LKN. LKN, LKN, I thought, received_10210128786245530where have I heard of that before? I looked it up and realized it stood for Lake Norman which is the lake that is a few minutes drive from my cousins house in North Carolina. I began researching Vinyasa Arts. I was impressed to say the least. They were a married couple, Andy and Tamara, with 25 years of combined experience. They had a studio in San Diego, and were relocating to North Carolina to open a studio there. I watched a couple of videos that they had made, and I was sold. Not only did they have the experience I wanted in teachers, but they seemed like genuinely good people. Their classes began in July which gave me some time to situate my life and quit my job. Best of all it came out of nowhere, my favorite place. A sign if you will.

It has been a whirlwind adventure since then to say the least. I really didn’t know what to expect. I am not the most stretchy guy, and my poses all need a ton of work. I spent the few days prior to my first class worrying over things like; would I be the only guy, would I be too old, or not in shape enough. Well the first class came. I realized at that moment how tough these next three months would be. This was real yoga, hardly any resemblance of the yoga I had taken for the three years prior. I sweated more in that first 75 minute class than I did running cross country all through high school. I did however realize that this was exactly what I needed to strengthen my practice. My classmates were all amazing people of all different ages and backgrounds, and we all came together like family almost immediately. We pushed each other to work hard, and be better in our practice. When one of us struggled with something there was no laughing, we simply helped each other through. In times of real life pain we all came together to try and make each other feel better. It was truly a family, or a tribe maybe. Everyone working toward a common goal, and helping each other over the hurdles it took to get there. I was amazed at the abilities and wisdom of our teachers, yet equally amazed at the comradary of my classmates. I know I could never have gotten this far without them. I am blessed that they were all thrown into my life.img_20160924_172439973_hdr

Ok now back to the rant… In one of our first class lectures we were talking about healing and yoga. During this talk our teachers told us that the yoga alliance has said that we cannot equate our yoga practice with healing when we advertise our classes without getting in trouble with the powers that be. This irks me to no end. So before I do become a yoga teacher and get in trouble for saying it let me tell you… Yoga IS healing for the mind body and spirit. Without any references to studies or lab tests etc. I myself can tell you, from my very own experience, that yoga is, if you put the effort into it, one of the most effective healing things you can do for your mind body and spirit. I will never tell you that my way is better than yours, because I know that people heal in their own ways. Anything you put a healing light toward can become a form of healing. Healing is truly about the effort you put into it. Yoga, meditation, religion, Tae Kwon Do, whatever brings you inward to find that spirit of healing inside of you can be your spark.

This, to me, reeks of big pharma sticking their nose in to stop from losing profits, and being more worried about selling more of their temporary solutions to the masses who are sold by their fancy advertisements, than actually ever helping someone. I worked in big pharma, I know how they operate, I know that from top to bottom it is all a lie.

It’s sad to me that people are so easily sold on treatments and medications, rather than diet and exercise. I have had so many people tell me “oh I’ve tried everything to help” this or that, but then when I ask them if they have tried yoga, it’s usually “yea I went once”. Well once is not what it takes to help with anything or change bad habits. Yoga is not a miracle cure, but if you put some dedication into it I can bet you will feel better in a month of regular practice than you do now. The best part of Yoga, practiced safely, with a good instructor, is that there are no side effects like the medicines you are sold by big pharma with lists of them so long it will make your head spin. Yes there are medicines we all need, but in many cases, especially, in my opinion, of cases of trauma, depression, anxiety, and many times incurable disease, you are being sold drugs that create no healing whatsoever, only a temporary relief from symptoms with very real risks from disastrous side effects.

Those of you who know me know that if something is wrong I will say it, like I did to big pharma. I see something wrong here. I obviously can’t tell the yoga alliance what to do, but if I could, I would tell them to let people know in every way possible that yoga surely can help you heal, because it does. The stories of healing are endless. If not for its healing light I would still be where I was 4 years ago. Mired in a downward spiral, and depressed that life was not getting any better for me and wondering why. I took the reigns and righted the ship with yoga and meditation. You can too with dedication. For we may not be able to change our fate, yet we can all choose our destiny.

Peace, love, and light. ~ p4th3tic

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Pictures and thoughts from the weekend of 03-26-16

Still trying to figure out this sleeping at night thing. It makes for some early road trips. I had been planning to go for a drive and a hike for a few weeks now, but the weather has been crappy, and the whole work fiasco thingy. I really wanted to go to Watkin’s Glen, but I just can’t see going there without the gorge trail being open. I still hadn’t decided when I left where I was going to go. I had it down to three; Stony Brook, Watkin’s Glen, or Ithaca. I really felt like getting a good workout so I decided on Ithaca. I knew a bunch of different places I wanted to see that I hadn’t yet been to. The day started with this stunning sunrise. The sun looked HUGE! The picture no where near does it justice…

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Love seeing things like this. 🙂

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First stop Taughannock Falls. Can anyone tell me what kind of bird is in this pic? He is a little camouflaged, to the left of the base of the falls in the pic. I didn’t even see him coming. I wish I did so I could have focused on him better. He was gorgeous, and a big boy!

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Majestic for sure! The energy is fantastic here.

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Spectabulous!

 

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Getting wet 200 feet away 🙂

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Stay behind wall… 😉

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Those first couple must have been tough…

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I added a stone.

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Loving my new phone camera.

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How is no one fishing on a beautiful Saturday like this!?

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I will never ever drive by this place without stopping here.

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“I felt my lungs inflate with the onrush of scenery—air, mountains, trees, people. I thought, “This is what it is to be happy.”
Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

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“I like this place and could willingly waste my time in it.”
William Shakespeare

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“Should you shield the canyons from the windstorms you would never see the true beauty of their carvings.”
Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

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This looked fun. 800 Stairs. Cascadilla Falls, as close as I got. Still closed for the winter. Sad because I was really looking forward to this one. 😦

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“Stairs, are they going up or are they going down? They’re so confusing! If love were a physical thing, it would be stairs.”
Jarod Kintz (Love quotes for the ages. Specifically ages 18-81.)

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I went to Lick Brook Falls. It was a nice walk, but not a whole lot to see. I did sign the trail journal though. 🙂

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About the coolest thing I saw at Lick Brook 🙂 I wish I could have taken it home.

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Robert Treman Entrance, path to the Rim Trail.

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“Start writing, no matter what. The water does not flow until the faucet is turned on.”
Louis L’Amour

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“For whatever we lose (like a you or a me),
It’s always our self we find in the sea.”
E.E. Cummings (100 Selected Poems)

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I finally found a good heart rock! Coincidentally the top of the heart is as sharp as a razor. 😉

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“Do what you feel in your heart to be right – for you’ll be criticized anyway.”
Eleanor Roosevelt

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The battle of life is, in most cases, fought uphill; and to win it without a struggle were perhaps to win it without honor. If there were no difficulties there would be no success; if there were nothing to struggle for, there would be nothing to be achieved. Samuel Smiles

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Right where I belong…

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The base of Lucifer Falls. As close as I could get without hopping a fence 😉 If I had some water shoes with me I could have walked Right up to it. Anyone else see the face on the wall?

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More cool rock sculptures! People are awesome.

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It’s a long way dowwwwwwwnnnnn.

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Home in time to grab the pup for a sunset and walk. I did a good 7 or 8 miles today.

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“A human being is a part of the whole called by us universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feeling as something separated from the rest, a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.”
Albert Einstein

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Easter Sunday

Sunrise with the pup…

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A little bit of everything in this picture; moon, bird, nature, industry, and technology.

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Pretty cool mirror image on this one. You can see the reflection of the moon, bird, and cloud…

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…And the sun. Love the ghost birds if you full size it.

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Getting a bit more patient as other people pass… 🙂

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And Finally Happy Easter!

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An Easter Poem For You: Spring has sprung, the grass has riz, I wish I were in the chocolate biz! Happy Easter.

❤ p4th3tic

 

Dear person who is considering friending me on facebook:

 

Right where I belong 2A, number, one, I love my dog. If you are going to add me as a friend please understand that if you don’t limit me in your news feed, which is very easy to do, that you will incur from me, pictures of my dog, posts on how to heal, quotes I love and live by, and stories from my blog and other’s that I find helpful or interesting. This is what I believe Facebook was meant for; sharing memories, keeping in touch, putting a good message out into the world, and maybe even helping a person or two. I try very hard to never post anything with a negative vibe because I fully believe that your thoughts are your energy, and that becomes your reality. I want to be able to scroll through my feed and see positive thoughts, and happy pictures from happy people. If I wanted negativity I would just turn on the television, thankfully that never happens because I do not own one.

If you post negative things on your feed there is a good chance that I will mark you as an acquaintance so that I don’t get updates from you. I have blocked or de-friended various people for some things that most people would probably see as little things, but I just don’t need the negativity in my life.  I am not judging anyone, I am simply setting boundaries that I can live with.

I’m sorry that the pictures of my dog, pretty sunsets/sunrises, and waterfalls might muck 273d6abb74ef6d9eb779804537229fb7up some moments that could be spent reading funny memes, or reading/re-posting articles about an election that has no chance of ever being good for this country. I’m sorry that by that lengthening of the scrolling experience, that it is taking time away from the television. If my postings do not suit you, or you feel offended by anything I post, I truly invite you to add me to your acquaintances, block me altogether, or just stop looking at my page and /or my blog altogether. That would seem like a good corrective action for someone to take, and a good boundary to set. I promise I won’t be offended, and I don’t ever mean to intrude on “real life”, or incur anyone, any waste of time.

 

Marley June 1st, 2000 - August 21st, 2015

Marley June 1st, 2000 – August 21st, 2015

I spend my time living life and recording it in pictures and words, especially of my best friend, mostly because I didn’t get that chance with my other best friend that recently died. For the short time I did have with him, I was, like what seems to be most people, more worried about “real life” A meaningless job, how I was going to medicate to feel better, what was on TV, who posted what today, and how could I read in too deeply into their posts and make them about me. Back then I did not have a nice digital camera, and the photos I did have, were lost in a hard drive crash before I had them backed up. I also know that I may not see my current best friend for a while because my spiritual path is leading me away from my home, where I may have to leave him for almost 11 months.

The best part is my dog loves to have photos taken of him! You should see 2d n methe difference in his demeanor as soon as I take out the camera to capture a moment in time for us. He knows it’s pose time, and listens better when my camera is pointed at him than he does at any other time, unless we’re at a waterfall because he simply cannot take his eyes off them.

Anyone is always welcome at anytime to come witness this with your own eyes, and spend some time with us, but plan an afternoon to lose “real life” time from because sometimes I go out intending to come right back, and find myself on a 200 mile journey. Simply let me know, and you are invited. I’m sorry if I don’t get back to you right away because sometimes I lose hours to creating things, reading books, playing guitar, or working out. Maybe someday I’ll work some time for TV back into my life, but it’s not seeming likely at this point. If by chance I am not replying to messages/emails/texts, I have 2 suggestions. First, try ringing my phone, I have a ringer set for calls, not for texts. The second option is to come and knock at my door. You are always welcome, I have tea and healthy snacks almost always, and love surprise visits! Should you bring a Tim Horton’s 2 sugar coffee with you, I will be even more inclined to let you in.

This has been a public service announcement in honor of National Puppy Day. Do something with your dog today! Either that, or knock at my door and go do something with me and my dog today! 🙂

Walking my path

❤ and light ~ p4th3tic

Deep in thought…

12009842_1010929048971496_1783212286881627438_n     For the last three days I have been deep in thought. I disconnected from everything and everyone, well except my best dog buddy, and just took some time to think. I didn’t plan the future or even think further ahead than the moment I was in. I just took some time to feel everything in my life. I have been very drained from the constant struggle between what I truly believe, and the thing that I have done for a living for the last, almost 4 years. As I have awakened to truths, and see how terribly misguided and lied to we all are through advertising, mainstream media, government, and even our own doctors, it has become more and more clear to me that I can no longer tolerate the sadness, and guilt I feel everyday when I walk through those doors, under the guise that I am “saving lives”. The pharmaceutical industry cares nothing for you or your loved ones, they care only for the billions of dollars that they can make off of you. They need you sick, the doctors need you sick, every single person that is employed there, needs you sick. They want customers, it makes very little business sense for them to actually help you. This is a fact that I have witnessed everyday for almost 4 years. You can argue with me if you’d like, but I have no argument to give you back, it is no longer worth my breath. I’ve seen and participated in the lies daily, I’ve seen “the waving of the magic wand” over and over.

I know in my heart the way to health, and it has nothing to do with pills or medicine. Health comes from6e3e1105ad1342889f1c8f92ec648685 inside you. The vessel your spirit lives in is piloted by a mind with almost limitless power. We are creators, everything we have, we create, good or bad. That which you give power to, has power over you. Our intuition, that little voice inside our head that chatters all day, knows what’s best for us, yet we are trained almost from birth to ignore it. We follow the leader and keep up with the Jones’. We watch TV and stare at our phones more than we pay attention to the 3 lb god that lives inside of our vessel.

I am utterly convinced that I am on a path in a direction that I have very little control over. Every step I take brings me new revelations about life, love, loss, and learning. I see little signs everywhere. Just a tiny example, I have read three books this year, on three completely different topics, suggested by three different people. Yet each one has mentioned the book that I had just previously finished. I am being guided by something much larger. I used to think asking for signs was tempting fate. I ask for signs nearly daily now, and almost unfailingly they come to me.

The one lesson that has shined through all the others to me throughout these last 4 years of my life, loves, and work is truth. Honesty is the most important part of our existence and the ground level of d032d0f3c0c2775d231e90de878e06e0every type of relationship we ever have. Truth is not always easy, it is not always what we want to hear, sometimes it beats the living crap out of us, and sometimes it angers others, but in the end it is the most important part of our existence. I would rather be hurt by the truth, than ever lied to. And I would rather be honest than anything else. In my line of work that is, I have found, impossible.

I’ve spent my whole life not even being true to myself. Poisoning my body and ignoring my mind. I finally realized that just about the same time I began working at this job. I believe that was also a part of a path toward clarity for me. If I couldn’t be true to myself, how could I ever be true to others? How many of you reading this are being true to yourself? I mean really deep down inside. Are you searching for the gift you are supposed to share with the world, or are you, like I have mostly always been, just doing what you were taught was right? Are you trying to adult your way to the next moment, or living life for a paycheck because you are taught you have to? Are you staying with a partner for the simple fact that it is easier to suck it up and just deal with it, rather than put the work in and be true to your own spirit, your own voice inside your head? Are you taking medications daily or giving them to your children because, some guy in a white coat, paid by a billion dollar corporation, tells you that it will help. You are likely taking years off of your life, and time away from your loved ones every time you swallow a pill.

Take the time for them and for yourself and work at your health, and your life, it will bring much larger rewards. The cells in your body regenerate an almost completely new you every few months. This is where the now countless stories of people given a few days to live with terminal disease who are now cured, come from. The stories are all nearly the same. These people simply decided they were going to heal. In your life, find the things that little voice is telling you, that your conscience is telling you are wrongd08004a2c32523c03c88413d32012aa1 and turn them around. Stop ignoring what you know is right because of what someone else tells you. Look within for the answers because every single one of them is there for you. The medicines you take will never help you find them, and in all likelihood, as it undoubtedly says on the packaging, are doing more harm than good. There are stories of people addicted to Xanax that have been trying unsuccessfully for years to wean off of it. While they may bring temporary relief for your symptoms, provided they are what they profess to be, they will never cure you of anything.

     I know I am here in some respect to heal people. I am still searching for the how. The best way I know to help someone heal right now is through sharing what I have learned and read about while on this path. The stories are endless, whether it be debilitating trauma, cancer, AIDS, mental disorders, addiction, etc. Mine is one of them. The way to true healing comes from within.

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This is the book I am reading now. If you have any kind of trauma, that you have suffered in your life this book will give you a very real healing path, and also better help you understand the effects that trauma has in your life, and the ways our body deals with it. It will help you better recognize the signs our body gives us, what they mean, and how to better deal with triggers. This man has spent his lifetime working with trauma patients.