That could have went a million different ways.
I took a chance that I thought I had missed.
Still so very sad, that it became this.
Hello goodbyes, I reminisce,
I thought there’d be so much you’d miss.
On this day I invited you in,
Quickly my heart began to spin.
I fell further each day.
All my tears withered away.
You pulled me up from the bottomless pit,
Without you, there, I would still sit.
Even after all, that it became,
I miss you each day, for that, I am not ashamed.
I’m not the person that you’re seeing in me.
I promised that, to you, I never would be.
Still lost for why things, are what they are.
All I can do, for you, is wish upon stars.
If, when you walked away, what you said was true.
Then you walked away from me, for something you never even knew.
I hope you are well, and finding some peace,
I still care about you, that will never cease.
When I said those three words, I meant them for true.
My love doesn’t die, that is love, even if it wasn’t in you.
You said that it was, how quickly it flew.
It mustn’t have been, or those words simply have a different meaning to you.
I know it was quick, and I’m sorry for that,
I see clearer than most, with my feelings I’ve sat.
The healer in me always throws open my arms,
When instead it should set off all my alarms.
Yet I never said a lying word to you,
Every word from my mouth was utterly true.
Your reading these words, and fearing of me,
Yet to you, that, I never would be.
I know that trust is hard to believe,
I wish you could see, I wear my heart on my sleeve.
I mean you no harm, I care so much about you,
It hurts to hear the things that you’re thinking I do.
I thank you for what you’ve brought back to me,
Nature, my heart, all the things you said I should see.
More fun with you, they would have been,
It wasn’t to be, I still wish it was then.
I’m sorry that you don’t get to choose how I feel.
You don’t get a say in the ways that I heal.
I lost something that meant a lot to me.
I tried to tell YOU, but you banished me.
I’m sorry, I’m hurt, I’m sad, and all of the like.
The last few years of my life have been quite the treacherous hike.
My heart has stopped beating so many a time,
Betrayed by all three, the only three, I uttered the three, and held so sublime.
You still hang on these words that I’m writing for me,
I wish i knew why, you still want to see.
After all of this I’m still wishing for you,
That winding trail with the breathtaking view.
I was hoping by your side I’d stare at it too,
I wish you’d forgive me for caring about you.
Proof of the things that i said? I pulled this from a million images inside of your head. Maybe it was a clue, for you too, to find the vibrations in you. Now I am gone, disappearing into the abyss. No more will you see me, you I will miss.
Some of us truly are what we say.
Too bad the story in your head will never let you believe that. 😥